kirisaku: to tear into pieces
that’s what’s been happening to me these past couple weeks: i’ve been torn apart, or has it been me who has been doing the tearing? not doubt the latter. i mean, psh, i don’t get torn. :p do i have to like check my horoscope or something? my friends have been going to hell this month. and it’s mostly my fault. kinda. and i’m not on my period, just to tell you.
it first started when eliot got back from hawaii, and naturally not seeing him since the last day of school, i wanted to see the little dude. so we set up a date to have dinner. me, ellie, dopey, and him. and on that day, he totally flakes out on me and el (so does alan, but that’s not the point). and to top it off, i was carrying his birthday present the whole day to give it to him. man, what a rip. so i totally mouthed him off. i was pissed for a while. and i still am today.
then, on this one saturday i was at the wingluke, i decide to call suklin. she doesn’t pick up and i’m like “okay, later then”. then she calls back like a few minutes later bitching at me saying she had exams. well, excuse me for f***ing up your exam. your phone was on VIBRATE. so she b****es at me, so i do the same. reciprocation, right? right.
then, a couple days or something later, she calls back. and damn, am i still pissed. so i don’t really talk to her. i’m not in the mood.
THEN, last saturday, i was having a GREAT time. melissa’s sister, meagan, brought her friend from japan. her name is joudi (which is not a common japanese name, being the fact that it’s in katakana). and melissa seems to idolize her for that fact. i don’t really get it, but joudi seems cool, and i go along with it. meagan invites us for pho, she’s treating. melissa seems giddy, and i dunno if i want to go, but meagan and melissa say it’s okay, so i go. meagan and joudi talk in japanese and i understand more than i ever though i would. amaaazing. after that, we go to uwajima for joudi’s departure. so we go, and i look at stuff by myself while meagan and joudi look around and melissa tags along with them. after a bit, they decide to leave and break the rules. i still wanna keep looking but melissa wants me to go, so i do. joudi and meagan are already across the street, so melissa starts whining to meagan to wait. and of course, she doesn’t.
my temper starts to flare because i’m fed up with this constant a** kissing. so i just tell melissa, “why don’t you go walk faster? hurry up, you’re annoying me.” and so she gives me a look and says that she will. and i’m not gonna type what i thought in my mind, cuz it’s not cool. anyways, after this ordeal, i walk the hell home. it was freaking hot too.
so yeah, i just wanna tell all my friends to go to hell right now and not talk to anyone for the rest of my life. but i won’t.
ANYWAYSS, today, i got my script for night market. I’M FREAKING EMCEE, DOODS. yeah. i’m pretty excited. youthcan has been a bit hard, i’m making thank you cards for some people, writing text for our exhibit and everything. i can’t wait for it to be over. but when it is over, school starts. damn.
my schedule’s pretty sweet, though. i’m happy. no hard teachers, but i dunno about math, they didn’t tell me my math teacher… hmm
yeah. so, who’s been a’tearing? ME.
but i’ll apologize… eventually.
i’m also really into shunichi miyamoto right now. he’s not too cute, but his voice is absolutely adorable!!! 
