(if i kill you, i expect to feel great satisfaction)
yes, the spunerd. he just enjoys repeating shit over and over.
and sometimes, i just want to make a point. it’s not that i believe in what i’m saying, i’m bringing up a GODDAMN POINT, you jackass.
youthventure is fun, though. 
so i came home ‘yesterday’ and i was out like a light. and i just woke up at like 1.
so, i’ll wake up at 7ish to get ready and pack my lunch and go to the museum to see morimori. やった！
それでは、漫画をみに行くわよ！
so yesterday, i had the worst morning i’ve ever had in any summer.
so there are three programs i attend.
mentor2college (m2c) at the nela center which is monday through wednesday from 9 AM – 12 PM and on thursdays, SOMETIMES 8 AM – 4 PM for college campus visits
youthventure (yv) at the nela center which is monday and wednesday from 1 – 3 PM
youthcan (yc) at the wlam which is tuesday through friday 1 – 5:30 PM
so basically, i go to every m2c and youthventure meeting and for youthcan, i go always on tuesdays and perhaps fridays?
well anyway, on sunday night, the day before youthventure’s first day, i was sleeping and ellie called me at 2 AM for SOME reason (because i hadn’t talked to him for a while) and so we talked for 2 hours; i slept for 3 hours till i woke up at 7:15. i THOUGHT that youthventure would start at 9 for some reason and left the house at like… 8:20.
ah wait. so haowie was gonna go out with shawn for the last time and she wanted me to cover her and come to my house in the morning for a bit. but i thought i had to go to the nela center. so i cancelled those plans with her. i also made plans with suzanne to go over youthcan stuff, so i planned to head to the museum at like 1.
and here is where everything gets fucked up. excuse my language. i was super pissed off.
so i know that i had to take a 48 bus, but for SOME fucking reason (i was listening to music and was distracted), i took a 7 (mistake 1). i realized my mistake and got off a several blocks BEFORE jackson (mistake 2). so i speed walked so i wouldn’t be late. i COULD have taken a 14 that was RIGHT there, but for SOME reason, i didn’t take it (mistake 3). so i walked up EFFING jackson street in the wind. and the wind was SOOO strong; dirt and other shit was getting in my eye.
and THENNNN i get to the center a bit early and no ones there. so i call people i know who should be there like mel. but NO ONE answers. so i go in anyway. and i ask them about the program. and one of the volunteers i’ve met before tells me that it usually starts at 1, so the program should start at one. i was trying to explain what i thought and my misunderstandings and whatever shit i was saying, but he was saying it started at 1. “but, blah blah blah”. and this fucking guy is a fucking nerd who goes to spu with plaid shirts and combed over hair and some seriously unfashionable glasses. AND HIS VOICE. oh my god. i wanted to stab him in the neck. and i was so adamant on getting to the place on time, too. i was seriously gonna start crying.
so afterwards, i called hao up to see if she still wanted to come over. but she wouldn’t pick up, which bugged me to NO end. i was super pissed off. and so i took a 48 home and walked up the damn hill i live on.
THEN, i wake ellie up because he kept me up. we talk a bit and he goes back to sleep (bastard) and hao finally picks up. yeah yeah. and then i head over to the museum to plan shit (which we do). and then, i head to the place.
(i don’t really remember this part) somehow, i walked up effing jackson again because the 14 bus didn’t come until 1:15 (i’d be late). so i walked up fucking jackson street twice that day while it was windy. but the program was fine.
played some knot themed icebreakers and some introduction. yeah, it was fun!
and today, yc was quite fun. it was SUPER organized compared to last year. and even though josh is an adultist, he is very organized. the snack was good (pudding and fruit tart, veggies and dip, mango tea) too!
HOWEVER. i damn miss the boater chinese people from last time, specially shen. he was soo cute, ah~! and they actually tried to contribute even though english was a huge barrier for us. but these freshmen/sophomore punks don’t do shit and they have horrible attitudes. harriet potter (code name, don’t mind it). i think i know why your glasses are broken in the middle like harry potter. it’s cuz someone couldn’t control their anger and fucking punched you in the face!!! *#0#_(@$ so, goddamn go to your other program and don’t let me see your stupid face and stupid glasses. FUCK YOU. but i got to laugh and get to know allan a bit more today. i’m glad and suzanne, allan, and myself are a lot more similar than i thought.
on a positive note, here is an ‘i am’ poem i wrote at the yv day.
i am
i am a sketcher, not a painter
i wonder what my glasses prescription is
i hear this annoying guy with a squidward voice at school all the time
i see a mole of moles outside
i want to see so many things before they are gone
i am a sketcher, not a painter
i pretend that i’m in a giant wheat field with no bugs at all (impossible!)
i feel like i’m going to barf like that time in chem class
i touch a friend street cat that won’t bite or scratch
i worry that i’ll be painting my room forever
i cry for people who don’t believe anymore
i am a sketcher, not a painter
i understand that 2 + 2 = 4
i say that i’m a kid at heart
i dream that my school is a bouncy toy
i try to understand where people come from
i hope that everything will work out
i am a sketcher, not a painter
YEAH!! hahaha so i filled in the blanks, basically. i didn’t think at all and everything i wrote was at the top of my head.
also, speaking about paint, i JUST finished taping everything. all we need to do now, is paint the stripes and touch em up. next project? flooring and painting one of the foyer walls (yeah, accent wall!)
anyway, still need to start on that homework. and art supplies are DAMN expensive. approximately 16 items on the recommended list. on amazon, it turned into like $70 (not bad). but shipping and handling!??!?!? OOWEE~ $70 turned into $130. that’s right. like double the amount! so, i shall just buy the high quality colored pencils and the rest will be purchased somewhere else. -.-
anyway, about 1100 words. later, douchebags. <3
BONUS: Eriot’s birthday
so i never knew how fun apples to apples was. i owned. the end.
the pasta salad was really good too. eriot lives in a cement block. he now has three stitches. the end.
my act score came home, and according to asian standards, i fail. yet again.
on the other hand, i LUFF the new safari.
i had a WEIRD ASS DREAM. (oh and gratz to haowie for the car stuff)
anyway, i had a dream within a dream and it was SUPER memorable.
so there was this asian guy who spoke japanese with me and he was at my house this one day and like 5 other people were at my house too. we were in my living room and then we were alone and i was sitting in front of the tv and he was standing next to me. i remembered saying, “hey, i like your pants”. they were light jeans kind of rolled up at the bottom and near the pockets, there were little painted dots. (i think i’ve painted too much, haha). and then, i’m standing next to him, posing for a group picture with the other people and at the same time, everyone but me and the guy disappear and we switch bodies, which makes me standing up and him sitting.
so i feel my (his) body and oowee! hahahaaha and i say/think (i don’t remember which), “i wanna stay in this body”.
and then, i wake up to go to school”wow, what a great dream” and it’s dark like winter-time and it’s effing 8:43 AM and i’m late for school!! (a couple notes on my room arrangement: my bed is now flipped so it would be opposite of where it should be [i'm painting my room, remember?] and a full sized bed CANNOT fit there because the closet door would then be blocked!!!!) so i hurry the hell up and get ready and robin (WHY ROBIN?!) goes to my bed and starts playing pokemon on my gameboy like he’s eliot or something while i’m brushing my teeth.
then, we arrive outside of school (i don’t see a glimpse of the outside, just the inside). and there’s like a halloween themed bouncy obstacle course. you know, like the ones at fairs? so the bouncy things are black and orange and there are fake cartoon spiders hanging around and waving and it’s like a maze and when you hit a dead end, some stupid spiders come and whack you or whatever. so robin’s gone by now and i’m left with all the other people who can’t get through the maze.
so i hit a giant room of absolute chaos. there are teachers or adults trying to prevent the kids from getting through so they get tardy. and i’m just minding my business and my ex-friend (lol) dressed like a teacher comes and glares at me for a couples seconds and i smile back but she doesn’t get me and walks away. so i pass the room. then, there’s a fork in the path split three ways. one of the ways is a dead end, i can see and so i take the next one. there’s this giant fuzzy grey thing and tracey and some other people are fighting it.
she says in her stitch voice, “kick him, ally! kick him!!” so i do and i start flying. and the grey thing looks like a kid in a suit (i’ve seen his face in school, but i have no idea what his name is) but it’s actually his body. so i start flying, and i feel hella powerful and he sees me and starts flying too. tracey is trying to punch him while i do these spirit finger thingies (magic?) and he does them to me too. but the giant thing is annoyed at tracey so he pushes her down and that’s all i remember.
HELLA RANDOM DREAM. wtf?! paint fumes?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?
so, i’ve added some stripes. my room is a candy shop!! 
ps. that japanese guy was BOMB.
so yesterday (or earlier today), i wished mr. wohns happy birthday, right? then i see his status and it’s like
…is having an amazing time in Japan and thanks for the birthday wishes!
frown is all i can do. ): ):
okay, so i wrote about the yc party because it came before the orientation (timeline wise), but it had a good ending, so i’m going to push it to the last couple paragraphs. anyway, on to the youth venture and mentor 2 college orientation!
so for a couple hours, i went to the nela center by garfield and there were quite a lot of people there and there was racial diversity. i was actually a bit surprised. so youth venture is a program that gives kids a place to mix together community problems and passions. taking this mix, a person can make a non-profit or event or anything they think of and project it to the community but first, this plan is presented to a board and evaluated and it’s eligible to win up to a thousand dollars in grant money to get the project started!
and the application was sent along with mentor 2 college (which i signed up for) but the youth venture one needed an essay which i didn’t write. but, for some reason, i didn’t need to write the esssay… whatever, i’m not going to worry about it. everything is cleared up. -.- hahaha
any-who, the two dudes who are in charge of youth venture were pretty cool; they were good at speaking and seemed SPARKLING with energy. i think i gave a good impression and i input some good ideas, i think. i was also surprised at the eye-contact they made with me. it was weird!! while one of them was talking to the whole group, he’d make eye-contact with one person a long time and a couple times with me. wah, pretty eyes! lol
also, i saw an old acquaintance, kathy. yes, the one that was in mr. oc’s class in seventh grade.
and then, we took a break and had sandwiches/ezell’s/juice/fruit salad.
the mentor 2 college thing was pretty straight forward. they emphasized coming each day on time and dressed appropriately. the japanese lady seemed kind of intimidating, derek always has a soft voice but has a sense of humor, and the other lady kind of had weird eyes that were always wide. and one of the volunteers was kind of nerdy looking, but he was nice and liked to help.
so nearing the end, cameron, one of mentor 2 college’s greatest success stories came and made a little speech from the top of his head. he’s such a natural speaker! and his little brother, larry (really nice) was there so he came to pick him up, but the staff wanted him to talk a little.
but first, some laying down of the facts: cameron came a bit late and was talking on his phone. he was asked to continue to phone call outside. he went outside and hung up shortly. then, he came inside and ate and was asked to do a speech.
nearing the end of his little talk, one of the mom’s (i’m not going to be stereotypical, but she was black) called him out. she thought that he should be an example and should come on time. she stated that he was late and on the phone and that he should not be talking to the kids if he was late and not a good example. she went ON AND ON. it was infuriating and scary because i was sitting like a foot away from her.
about three hours prior…
okay, so at the shitty yc party, while all the underaged freshmen from franklin were watching a rated r movie, jojo, mori, and i played the shittiest game of 10 fingers in history. it is the worst game in 10 fingers history because those two have done NOTHING juicy in their lifetime. i’m serious.
cuz you know, usually, people are like “oh, i’ve never given head or i’ve never made out with another girl and people put their fingers down? my god! i had to resort to DRASTIC measures like “i’ve never had a crush on arthur” and yes, it’s the cartoon character arthur on pbs kids. -.-
but then, it went down to relationship things and out of the two they vote that i have indeed had a relationship. but in my eyes, i don’t think it was. there was no “will you be my girlfriend?” none of that. and there was no kiss and no genuine “i love you” (at least not from me). i’d like to think that what i do with people are categorized in my own terms. but maybe people just need to see more of the world and maybe, some pretty amazing, pretty crazy things will happen to them as well.
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so, it’s 2:30 on this wonderful day. and according to facebook, it’s… anthony wohns’ birthday. amazing.
anyway, there’s this amazingly cute manga called kimi ni todoke and, my god, it’s addicting and the art is TOO cute!
so it’s basically about sawako (nicknamed after sadako, the character in ‘the ring’ because of her scariness) and her transformations. but in actuality, she’s not scary AT ALL and she’s really an innocent girl who thinks that being alone is in her nature and takes in stride. but this happy, popular guy, kazehaya, befriends her and they slowly, slowly start to like each other (but she actually doesn’t know because all these feelings are new to her). she also gains yano and yoshida’s friendship as well. but sadako, coming from the dark depths of the social structure, the bitchy ‘popular’ girls are suspicious that sadako’s using kazehaya, yano, and yoshida for popularity. but whatever, because sadako’s too pure hearted and kazehaya’s just too understanding, so everything works out and the romance just keeps getting more and more heart-wrenching. people, this is the perfect romance, i swear. this is my fantasy, okay? lolol i’m actually KIND OF serious.
so, if you have some free time and want to read something super cute, here you go:
http://www.onemanga.com/Kimi_ni_Todoke/
oh yeah, some interesting facts about the author, shiina karuho. she was on a hiatus for sometime because she just gave birth, so i think she’s back on! i was actually quite disappointed when i got to chapter 8 a couple weeks ago and didn’t know what happened and when she’d get back and the latest chapter just came out, so i think the chapters will come out regularly again. yay!
today, i mean yesterday, i woke up at 3 pm. what the hell?!?!? i woke up to my phone vibrating and it was my mom and surprisingly, my voice didn’t sound all scratchy and disgusting. and i looked at the clock and it was like 3 something. i thought it was broken or we had an outage or something. but the numbers on the clock weren’t flashing. so i ate cereal and cooked dinner. haha
i made… some ghetto carbonara (i say ghetto because i used green beans instead of peas and wagon wheel pasta instead of long pasta) haha and i also made some baked salmon. it was hella good. and then.. i started moving my shit outta my room and so my clothes are in the living room and my mom’s computer room and basically all my furniture is in the computer room too… and then we went to get the paint and the color is called ‘orangeen’! yess. i decided to paint my room orangeen and white stripes, like a candy store! :O
but later today, i’m busy with museum and nela stuff so i shall start painting on wednesday!
after coming home from paint buying, i started taking off the little glow in the dark stars on my ceiling (so the white stripes and the ceiling white will match). at this point, my room was really empty and my mom had opened the window, so it was cold too. it was a lonely feeling. and then, i took my harry potter posters down. and the christmas lights. and the stars were all over the floor and glowing a bit because it was sort of getting dark. IT WAS THE PERFECT SCENE FOR AN EMO PHOTO SHOOT.
and eliot wanted me to postpone my painting because he wanted to be there because “i kinda like the empty room thing”.
wha? anyway, my bed’s still in there, but i’m sleeping on my living room futon because i think i’ll be scared to wake up to nothing.
so, anyone who’s up to a painting party, hit me up for wednesday because eliot’s off to vegas that exact day.
also, mayuge, glad that you’re in japan safely.
640 words. later, dudes.
ooh, songs i must download!!
Falling Slowly – Glen Hansard
We Walk – Ting Tings
Sad movie – Goodbye
I’m Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How to Dance With You – Black Kids
今日、マユゲは日本へ帰った。私、見送らなかったですけど、よかったと思う。なぜなら、悲しくて、空港に行ったと、たぶん、泣いたつもりですから。未来、私は絶対に、東京へ行きます。マユゲを会うために。マユゲ、君はシアトルの事とか、ガーフィルドの事を忘れないとかも知れないですので、私は心配しません。
じゃあ、マユゲ、私の東京に着く時を楽しみにしてくださいね！それまで、お大事に。
アリソン、より
Anyways, it’s the second day of summer break and I’ve slept soo much!
Tomorrow, I’m moving most of my stuff out into the living room to finally paint my room. Yes, Melissa says that the green is refreshing, but I don’t really like it. I mean, I’m super sentimental and I hope I don’t miss it too much. Maybe I’ll just save a small square. Haha, just kidding.
So Tuesday, the 23rd and Saturday, the 27th are busy days. Two events each, what’s up with that? I’m puzzled.
I’ve actually got so much crap to do like that art stuff that I MUST get started on and math, definitely. But, my mom wants to send me to NY to live with my wonderful cousin and cousin in law for the summer. And I really, really wanna go, but I’d feel guilty about my plans already with the Wing Luke… But, there is a school (FIU, I have no idea what it stands for) that my mom and cousin want me to take a class at. So I think the class is what my trip depends on. But, even though I actually plan for something, it never ever happens. You know, like TIPS and Japan? Dude, I’m a failure at life. -.-
But, I’m not too bummed because my mom is set on going to Alaska the last week of July. Yesss, french fries EVERYDAY.
Also, I’m actually finishing up Densha Otoko, the drama because I’ve never finished it and watching the movie in class made me want to watch it. Such a cute story but Densha is super frustrating! I’d love to date someone like that so I could make him flustered easily. LMAO, it’d be hella funny and Mori is probably laughing right now as she reads this, maybe? 
OH YEAH. I know that I have people reading this stuff and some are actually my friends. A shout out to Lisa, Mori, Janice, Hao? That’s four and I get at least 50 hits a day. (Are you guys just refreshing the page a jillion times?) How come people just lurk and don’t do anything? I’m ACTUALLY hella curious about people who read this. Like.. seriously. -.-
Anyways, the Super Show 2 is going around Asia soon. Wow, I’m jealous.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot to write about this. hahaha
SO, I finally got a cut from my braces and I’ve finally had to resort to wax. -.-
It’s actually that bad and UGH, it twinges like hollyhock! x_x
ps. Angelina is omg orz cute!
How you like my new banner? ㅋㅋ
so, today is the first day of summer and school is hollyhocking out the door!!!
anyways, i’ve been meaning to blog for a long ass time but i haven’t had the time due to finals being basically on the last day of school. aggravating, i know. i actually had so much to write that i made a list of stuff i could write about… but i seem to have lost it…
so the last week of school, antoncich, the japanese teacher left to the hospital to have her baby and left us (again) with who fatihah would call ‘molerat’. she came back as white as ever with the most horrible accent and activities and i’m so glad we didn’t have to do ラジオ体操.
rubbery, eh? hahaha
and we listened to angela aki’s 手紙 ～拝啓 十五の君へ～ (Letter to my 15 year old self).
it’s a good song, right? how about if you get a lyrics sheet and have to fill in the blanks? a person who doesn’t even know japanese could do it. haha and we listened to it 3 times. -.-
the last couple days we watched 電車男. i watched the drama, but i actually like the movie more. probably because the densha was cuter and hella good at crying. the one in the drama might actually be the real densha from real life, but this nerd was just too cute at the end!! ^^ a great transformation story for anyone who wants to see a movie about hope, comedy, cuteness, and a funny-ass kiss scene!! hahaha
anyway, moving along… a person i haven’t talked to since like january chatted me on facebook. the conversation was a bit awkward. hahaha, but it shocked me. really surprised that she would talk to me out of the blue. i suppose i’ll talk to her over the summer? :L this shouldn’t exactly be in public, but chyeah.
p = person
a = me
p: so, still not talking to me?
a: i dunno, am i?
it’s been almost 6 months, must be a record..
p: yeah, i miss you like hell -.-
but courtney* told me
‘give her some space
a: you talk to courtney about that? lol
p: yeah
-.-
p: well, i’m sorry
for everything
i’d say it in person, but i never see you, let alone talk to you
yeah, something like that. i was really surprised. and yesterday, i was waiting for lily to get her stuff from brierly’s room and i was wondering what i would say to p. i waved when she wasn’t looking and said ‘hi’ a couple times, but not loudly enough.
mayu is leaving tomorrow and in japan, you go to the airport with them and see them off and in america, you grudgingly go to the airport through traffic and leave immediately. i don’t think i can go tomorrow… it’s been a wonderful year with her and she’s been a wonderful friend and i hope she can come to seattle again sometime. and i better effing go to japan sometime in the near future. -.-;; there have been so many dumb stupid stuff i can remember and how she calls eliot “rude” but with her accent, it sounds like “lewd”. and how i called her mayuge and all these other things and all the sleepovers and whatnot.
it seems just like yesterday that we were recording our speeches in japanese and she’d tell us what’s wrong with it and when she wore her uniform for halloween and EVERYTHING.
this year, junior year, has been such a ride. lol and probably the year where i copied the most work in my life. basically chemistry. hahaha cuz i didn’t do it. oh, speaking of chemistry, someone who we all know, basically stole the chemistry final and got caught. so every chem class except for brierly had to take a short answer test instead of multiple choice. time constraint was also an issue. 1-3-5 was the schedule for the last day of school, which was early release. so instead of 2 hours like 2nd and 4th period got, 3rd period got thirty minutes less. i was totally on a roll and when time was going down and the questions i didn’t know where left, i basically bsed it. lol
so yesterday, was the last day of school and before i went to karaoke, i watched ‘the proposal with rika, janice, and lily’. the first movie i’ve seen in theaters since… nick and norah’s infinite playlist? anyway, it was pretty good and ryan reynolds is pretty bomb diggidy. heh so the story was kind of like a manga, a hard ass boss and a pushover kind of guy and under these super coincidental circumstances, they fall in love and lots of cliche little things that would never happen actually happen in real life. -.-
so after that, everyone went their separate ways and i hung out with lisa and jianqi (pronounced gingy, you know, the gingerbread man from shrek?) anyway. i kept trying to make it not awkward cuz this dude definitely didn’t want me there spoiling his alone time and i kept trying to talk and ask questions and all that. i call fatihah anyways and she comes too so i don’t feel like the third-wheel/lightbulb/etc. and then gingy goes and drags lisa away and never comes back without saying “bye” and lisa doesn’t either. i mean, we wouldn’t have made them stay or anything, it was just pretty rude. all in all, my impression on gingy is bad. the end. so me and fatihah walked to sbk and called dwone for directions. we basically took the ’scenic route’ haha. but we got there and burned hella fucking calories!! another alfat adventure. lol
karaoke was pretty fun. it was so warm in there. and my face was warm and i was sooo sleepy. sang a couple songs, lalala, and only 3 dollars per person. thanks to dwoney! we all paid like 1/3 of the price. amazing, employee discounts.
oh, and i made a promise to janice: bring her to a strip club because i’d be legal and she’d be turning 18.
anyways, the last day of school did not feel like the last day of school. it was raining and i had two finals that day. and what do you know, i’m a senior. wtf? i don’t feel like i have gotten any older and i don’t feel like i’m a year away from college. no, not at all. but next school year, i hope i can be proud of myself because this year, damn, grades are nothing to be happy about (in asian context, of course).
so on my schedule, i have 3 and a half APs and i’m thinking of dropping 12 AP language arts because there’s so much reading involved and AP art is gonna be so much work. i’m super excited to do different styles and all but i’m a bit nervous because all i know how to work with is graphite. i really wanna paint, though. so, i got a letter from hungate-hawk about ap art and there are so many supplies to get! it was seriously like harry potter. “you’ve been recommended blahblah” and there was a supplies list. hm..
and i have to do four pieces over the summer and like 20 math problems for ap statistics.
and i’m painting my room this summer, too. orange and white striped like a candy store.
*kenneth courtney is the head counselor, and now a shrink? what a box. lol
1249 words, satisfied?
drama that i HAVE to watch, according to mayuge: tantei gakuen q
drama that i HAVE to watch, according to gar (yes, kpop gar): first shop of coffee prince
drama that i WANT to watch, according to me: uh, something else
so eliot didn’t win the election like i wanted to. the recount was done the day after the initial election because max david didn’t on the ballot because of various reasons. -.-
so, the reelection was held during the 15 minute breaktime and NO ONE knew about it. -.-
there were only several people who actually voted.
there were no spirit halls.
garfield’s graduation is tomorrow. haha, nothing more to say about that cept my cousin who goes there and has always avoided me bumped into me as we were getting out of the gym (assembly) kind of grabbed my arm (not hard) and i said, “hi” and she said “hi’ back. it was a friendly exchange, but i was wondering what it meant. i mean, she’s graduating tomorrow. so does she want to clean things up before she leaves?
speaking of the assembly for purple and white, our japanese dance was a success! i was sooo nervous when we were walking down from the bleachers in our happi coats and headbands (it was kind of embarrassing lol). red dots in a sea of purple!!! and we got down, took off our shoes and danced our asses off. it felt like 2 seconds, dancing up there. crazy stuff.
mayu’s leaving soon. today, we had a breakfast party and i brought crepes. and there was spam, eggs, and rice. basically the highlight. there was monju, mochi, doughnut holes, juice, what have you. it was soo fun, though. and we presently mayu with her book of cards and each card was made by us!
and lately, i’ve been hanging out with lily a lot… lately. -.-
melissa too and fatihah more than usual. but it’s fun.
and today, us three, (mori, lily, and i) were talking about prom (i know, already? it was lily’s idea). and it was about who we’d ask or whatever. interesting stuff. hahahahahahaha
anyways, it’s the last two weeks of school and there’s so much shit to do!!
i have to go to half price and get this book on my fines list that damn ms. cram never checked off. -.-
do my damn presentation with lisa and make it fucking good (or decent)
do this damn college essay assignment
pass chemistry
get a b in math (test and homework must be finished!!)
take the damn act this saturday
sign up for this one program
go to parties
go to the beach
something i can’t type on here
and turn in a library book or renew it
it feels like.. there’s so much more time left. but there really isn’t. the weather has been glorious and i’ve been motorcycling with my dad to school. that 5 minutes of cold is definitely worth the feeling of being on a motorcycle.
anyways, will update soon because i will be freeee soon!
also, there will be a 「さようなら・マユゲ・スペシャル」!!
お楽しみにしてくださいね！
忠治、どこにいる？
wow, it’s so busy right now. and yet, it’s 2:46 AM right now and yet i’m still awake. but i actually slept at like 5 PM and woke up again at 9 PM to study for chem. and here i am because i haven’t wrote anything for a long ass time.
so, i just killed an effing spider. it like came from the ceiling, that damn daddy long legs. THE WORST. i was terrified. but at least i killed it, right?
anyway. epik high was a pretty good concert. Except I was deaf in one ear like 2 seconds into the concert because hao and i were right next to the speakers. but before that, the line was soooo unfair. people waiting since 4, for example, had the possibility of getting in last. and people that got in line at 7 had the possibility of getting first.
and it was security’s fault. it was hella weird at first, because he had these two yellow plastic bags hanging from his belt or something and he ripped them and nuts came pouring out of the little SACS.
and there was a dude who i’ll forever remember as ‘mask guy’. lol
so the security guy was smoking while ‘working’ and i was dying because cigarettes are gross. and this one dude wearing a SARS mask turns around and offers a mask. and of course, i say ’sure, you have more?’ and he just takes one out of his backpack.
SO MANY KOREANS. mean koreans, too. excluding squeejee and dami. lol
these two chicks were trying to squeeze in front of me. hellllll no. so i pushed them. haha
so the line sucked, i was tired, but i didn’t want to sit down in the back. so my ears were pounding and my feet were aching. and at the end of night, my neck was dripping sweat. like seriously.
this dude kept looking at me wiping my sweat off. haha, creepy. -.-
BUT TUKUTZ IS SO BOMB. he has the same face and seems like he’s not doing anything, but he’s too amazing.
djs are the least appreciated out of the four thingies of hip hop. graffiti-ing, bboying, rapping, and djing.
but anyway, that concert was crazy.
so that was two saturdays ago on the 23rd. last saturday, was quite depressing.
it was the YFU orientation. and i was the only person at the thing NOT GOING. lol
the people who are going to japan (like half of them) are leaving in less than a week now.
it was pure hell. 10 AM – 4 PM burning with jealousy. but these kids weren’t too bad. they were really smart; you could tell. and from small cities. i was the only one from seattle, too. some were from deer park, olympia, spokane, boise… yeah! and they were off to finland, mexico, ecuador, and chile.
the guy going to chile was pretty cute and tall. i think melissa would’ve like him. haha
and this other one from olympia and going to japan, i think. added him on fb.
but, looking back, he wasn’t thaaaaaat cute. but whatever.
i still think it was a waste of my time though. ehh…
ELECTIONS at school are “…”
i’m really proud of eliot, he WILL win. najee will be tough, though…
joanne is an unspeakable, maxine will probably win.
all the other candidates are quite evenly matched in my book. lol
but damn, hella drama in asg treasurer stuff. don’t even wanna get into that because i don’t want to remember it. but ms. vanessa hudgens needs to calm the fuck down because joanne’s setting herself up. lol
so there’s this girl who is probably having a rough year. i haven’t talked to her since winter.
she has no good friends she can talk ‘real-ly’ with. you know, about boys and crud like that.
nobody really likes her, she alienates herself and makes people think that she is so almighty and doesn’t give a fuck. but she does. and i can tell. she has a horrible home-life, a non-existent group of friends, and, in my opinion, a fake korean boyfriend in canada.
she is a girl that wants to get what she wants. and she will do anything to get that. in her mind, people are tools for her. things that she can use to do well on a test or project. she always acts higher than everyone else and flaunts what she has, which isn’t much. but when she has something, it’s blown up to giant proportions. this girl is a reflection of my cousin.
people need to change their ways and how they see things and how they communicate with other people.
the first impression is always the most important. you can’t expect people to understand you right off the bat.
so what, if i’ve known you since elementary school? other people don’t even know you. you have to watch what you say, and run cleanly.
okay, my opinion on the korean boyfriend is that he is a fictional fantasy that:
a.) makes her feel better about herself
b.) makes people think that she’s okay
c.) was supposed to make me jealous
i say c not because i am egotistical but because she knows that i like yunho?
i hear she always flaunts him in class and says it boisterously. she knows that news of this ‘boyfriend’ of hers will reach me. because she isn’t dumb. but i’m not either.
her life sucks. i acknowledge that and i feel sorry. i feel that if i were still with her now, she wouldn’t be screwing herself over. but life is about moving forward, progressing. and that’s just what i’m doing.
