A shetload of loose ends.

I suppose college application-ing has taken it’s toll on me. But whatever, that’s not what’s important on this November 11th. The Ultimate Wish Day/Peppero Day/Veteran’s Day.

SO. 2PM. Yes? lol at Haoward.

Strangely, Junho was extremely attractive in the video. You know, the one that looks like Rain. Except, Rain/Junho aren’t normally attractive in my eyes. But yeah. Junho! Junsu had some good moments too.

But I digress, their hairstyles were interesting. Pwahhh

Man, I’m going to blog when I actually feel like it because I feel like I don’t have much to say.

Prepare your wishes, everyone!

拝啓、

ねぇ、分かるでしょう？

私たちの空所はいっぱいごみがある。

しかたないよ。

Let it be.

敬具、

名無し

I just hate the feeling of people thinking that they’re

better, smarter, more important, higher, brighter, more liked

than me.

I can just feel it, radiating out from their annoying egotistical selves.

I hate feeling stupid and I hate feeling inferior even though I actually might be.

But everyone’s good at they’re own thing. Because I realize that, hey, this guy sounds like Squidward and he can’t draw for shit. And this girl is socially awkward and doesn’t have a life. I have my shortcomings and I acknowledge it even though I gripe and BS about them all the time online.

And it’s pretty weird how I’m actually quite self-conscious around people. Cuz I’m not the thinnest/tonest thing around at school. I mean, there are some pretty bomb girls who show it off. But at home, when I look at myself, I like how I am and I see that 2 hours of PE a day have been doing me good. LOLOLOL

But this one chick, who I don’t talk to anymore gained HELLA weight. Damn girl, you need to let my PE teacher whip you into shape cuz I don’t think you’ve been eating chocolate. You’ve been eating butter.

In the mean time, I’m feeling warm and fuzzy!

Finally

This week is over. It didn’t really feel long, it was short and painful. Last week, I was extra flustered and thought that I liked this guy for a couple days. *sigh* Statistics is going fairly well except for my HORRIBLE grade and physics is HORRIBLE with a good grade. Oh, I’ll rant about that damn student teacher. And speaking of nerds, I’ll rant more about NELA. lmao

But after school today was good. Hung with Lisa and Mei at Southcenter. Mei drove and it DROVE me nuts because I HELLA need to drive. Like nao. -.-;;

We played Wii at my house for a while and then set out to Sushi Land, but it was super busy so we headed to Olive Garden and the wait was like half an hour to forty minutes. We got a buzzer thing. And I asked the host if we’d still be alerted if we were in the mall. And he said it would ring if we were out of range. So we went inside the mall anyway and decided to get teriyaki at Sarku’s. LMAO so fudging cheap and good! And it started ringing a little before the food court but we couldn’t hear it because of all the noise anyway and we kept it in Mei’s purse. It was an annoying Minuet in D except it would only go for like 5 or so seconds and then repeat itself OVER and OVER again. It was pretty funny.

Then, in H&M, I told Mei to slip it in a coat pocket so we could get rid of it. And we did and went to the upper floor suspiciously. gehehehehe…. It was like an annoying bomb. Ah, we’re terrorists. >:D

So LAST weekend, the weekend of the 17th, man. All my close friends know. And people I actually know (not closely, though) read this. And it’s freaky how stuff on the net can be found. I wonder if the college admissions people are reading this…. Hi Admissions Counselors! haha

Anyway… my weird last-Saturday night… No details (because it’s kind of embarrassing and I dunno how to describe it).

Spunerd has called me about going to their program. How annoying. Maybe I’m not showing up because I think your services are useless. If something were important to me, I’d go! I’m actually already in this other college prep program and this great lady who works at Microsoft helps me out. She’s really smart and knows how to help me. My personal statement is VIRTUALLY done! BLAOWWWWWWW

And in Physics? Oh man. This student teacher, Mr. Baldingturtle (that’s what he looks like) gives grief to all of my first period physics class. My actual teacher is a dry-humored, tall, super athletic (biking, skiing, ex-swimmer), 39 year-old father of a 1 year-old. He uses the same corny jokes and is somewhat of a tight-ass when it comes down to grading, extra credit (not in his vocabulary), and responsibility vouchers (LOL). A responsibility voucher is a “miniscule amount of extra…. ah, I can’t even say the words…extra….”. So everyone gets like 8 vouchers and you have to give him one for getting caught texting, answering phone, having your phone ring,  phone problems etc., going to the bathroom on a short period, anything, basically. But anyway…

Labs in our class are DAMN boring. And we explore things like uniform motion, instantaneous velocity, whathaveyou. The labs are usually split up into a couple parts by “sign offs”. This is where Baldingturtle or my actual teacher come around to our lab groups and check out if we all understand. It’s nice that your teacher talks to you personally and comes around him/herself for the students. My actual teacher usually goes through the main idea and clearly explains stuff that we explored and covered in the lab. But Mr. Baldingturtle, however, asks US what the stuff is about and if we don’t know, he’ll “let [us] struggle with the problem and come back later”. He also translates simple English into his own language and spews out complete rubbish that means shiet.

ah, anyway. time to mull away in my own thoughts and whatever. i’m tired.

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also, i was HELLA freaking out about this physics test. but HOPEFULLY i killed it because it was WAY easier than i expected. BLOAW!

放課後とラブコン

So I came home from school from a horrible week of school (on Thursday night, I stayed up til 3 AM doing homework and woke up at 6:30 AM. I was so tired that I wasn’t even tired. I took a math test. -.-;;, and it was homecoming and people were giggin’ the night away), watched TV and then slept at like 6 PM and woke up at 9. It’s Homecoming Friday. HAHAHAH oh well, I’m going out ‘tonight’. It’s 2:16 AM right now and this is what I’ve been doing since I have last awaken:

Right now, this instant, I’m watching the short drama Lovecon (Lovely Complex). But earlier ‘today’, I watched the other short drama series called ‘Houkago’ (which means After School).

The only reason i watched Houkago was because it had Horikita Maki, my favorite Japanese actress in it! And kind of because Koike Teppei was too. lol It was an okay story. Some of the moments made me happy though. Only the parts with Ai and Teppei’s character though, they were super cute and not drama-ish.

I really like the idea of how Teppei’s character was the shy, gruff kid who wouldn’t confess and he put an ‘exchange notebook’ in Ai’s shoe cubby and the books and wahh! it was cute. Maki’s part was kind of drama-d up and I didn’t like her interactions with the other characters. And the annoying character who was super in love with the same guy Maki was? She was hella annoying! The last character, Sae, was pretty and probably the most normal of all of them.

It wasn’t groundbreaking, but it was nice to pass the time.

So yeah. Right now, I’m like 2 seconds into Lovecon which has Teppei in it already. This is weird. I didn’t really like him at first, cuz he is the cute little kid type and not like… say… Osamu Mukai. But his voice (singing and normal) is CUTE!

Here is the Top 30 Guys who Make Japanese Girls Heart-Quicken:

That was bomb, huh? I only know/like 10 of them. Anyway, for you searching purposes…

3. Oguri Shun
8.  Koike Teppei
10. GACKT
11. JaeJoong
13. Sato Takeru (doesn’t really make my heart beat faster, but whatevs)
18. SHIROTA YU (oh my damnnn!!!)
19. Hayami Mocomichi
23. Mizushima Hiro
27. Yamamoto Yusuke
29. OSAMU MUKAI (oh my dammmmmmn again!!)

I think this outburst was cuz I was super deprived this week and this weekend, I don’t have much homework! YOW!!

Saturday night is gonna be super fun, though. Melissa Lee’s birthday dinner and then extreme spoonz? I’m so ready!!

Anyway… I will leave this little window open and briefly review Lovecon (or the parts I watch) later.

-3:18 AM-
I’m about half-way through Lovecon. It’s HELLA cute!! And the soundtrack is also well done. (edit: The fruity cyclo dude is SUPER FUNNY). Teppei is also super dense. So frustrating. -.-;;

“You love who you love, what’s wrong with that?”

ps. you can plug in regular headphones in the microphone hole in your computer and use that as a microphone on skype. WHAT THE HELLLLLLL

dat wun a-shun guy who loves mitsubishi~

so after a bit of driving, i came home and then went out to celebrate my friend’s birthday. his name is mike (michael, whatevers) and he’s a super responsible, hard-working, respectful guy. he’s a great guy minus the fact that he’s a bit short and has weird hair. he’s pretty buff though, so i suppose that makes up for it? anyway, he doesn’t rely on his parents at all. he makes his own money and pays for everything and he just has motivation. plain and simple.

when i compare myself to him, i feel somewhat ashamed of myself because he does everything himself. he’s so mature. and he looks and acts like my cousin too. you know, the smart one? but, damn, he’s an amazing person because his life is actually really hard. like my old friend, suki, he has a brother with ADHD. and not regular ADHD.

this brother always curses and bothers people. especially michael. and i feel so apologetic to him because he has to live with this abuse all the time. and it was his birthday and his brother treated him so badly. he doesn’t even think when he says these kinds of things. i mean, i know that he can’t control it or anything, but where did this come from? it’s just thoughtless blabber.

this wasn’t the only time i have met his brother (he’s 13 btw). some months ago, it was bonodori and while i was on my way home, i noticed the back of michael’s head. and, of course, i walked a bit faster to say ‘hi’. and i did. but then, the kid next to him goes, “hey, are you michael’s bitch?” i mean, what kind of person would say that sort of thing the first time meeting someone? i just thought he was an idiot, but now, i suppose there’s another side of the story.

so michael’s family owns a teppanyaki place down by the supermarket that they OWN. you know, LAM’S SEAFOOD MARKET, hao? hahaha i know you shop there, right? anyway… it was an interesting party to say the least. they closed down the restaurant for his birthday and he invited like 14-15 friends (most guys, 3 girls…) and the other half was his dad’s business associates. i felt apologetic again because michael had to help out at his own party and BLAHHH. he even had to bring out his own cake. i felt that his brother should have carried it out, but he probably would have dropped it… -.-

his dad was super cute though! as mike brought the cake out, he kept banging a gong and banged the gong while we sang happy birthday. HELLA FUNNY. and then, one person i didn’t know told me and mei to kiss him. I WAS DYING!! hahahahahhahahahaha but mei was dying more.

but yes. i really felt that michael deserves so much more respect from his brother. and for a 13 year old, he’s big. and i mean BIG. he’s bigger than michael and he gets to say what he wants, which saddens me. like every sentence, there was cursing and it was hard for me to watch/hear this guy just blab his mouth off. so much, that i had to hug michael several times. lol

AND HIS DOG, SONNY/SUNNY IS SO EFFING ADORABLE. it’s a silky terrier and should have had long hair… until his brother cut off a lot of his hair. -.-;; mike found it on the street like 6 months ago at 1-2 in the morning after work. and he brought it home! ee!! soo cuuute. i kind of felt that sunny didn’t really like the brother because when i held him, i could feel his heart beat quicken when the brother came around.

seriously, what a menace.

this weekend was a good one. 3 days.. ahh… and then, back to school. DAMN! but wednesday is gonna be good because it’s the PSAT for sophomores and juniors. and seniors just have to get to school at 11:30 for 3rd period (5 minutes) and then a froshing assembly and then 5th period which will be set aside to discuss the assembly. and you’d think that it would be the perfect day to skip, but if you don’t go that day, no homecoming for you! i ain’t going anyway. so whatever.

SPIRIT WEEK!

monday – office day
tuesday – would you still be my friend if i wore this? day
wednesday -pajama day
thursday – senior citizens day
friday –  purple and white!! w00000000000t

it’ll be great, yes? but happy birthday michael.

mount marojsdofj (something) and leavenworth

before i go into the above stuff, i just wanna say that i’m actually doing this college crap. i’m so nervous though. every box. every letter that i type. it freaks me out. the adrenaline is actually going. i’m so worried that i might forget something and i’m not sure that what i type is the best. and it annoys me that i’m not a legacy at a school that i actually want to go to. because my damn smart cousins just wandered off an chose to go to ivy leagues and other KILLER schools.

harvard? yale? stanford? mit? and then there’s university of denver. haha should i apply? they sent me one of those emails that say you can apply for free, no essay required. university of montana did that too. haha. montana. good place for astronomy, i hear. but anyway, i’ve pretty much finalized my list and kicked off cornish. the designer i met with didn’t recommend cornish because he went there. LOL

anyway… mount marojsdofj is about my cousin who currently goes to the university of washington. he’s the one who is closest (age-wise) to me. he works at a bubble tea place in downtown and they’ve recently cut hours so he doesn’t work as much. and yesterday, the fourth of october, was his birthday. the night before that, i had a strange dream. and i’m pretty sure that it’s supposed to mean something.

so, i was on a train with suzanne (she knows my cousin and she’s the youthcan assistant. i’m hella close to her). and she’s looking for this kid. and so i go run through every car of the train until i reach the end. and i find the kid. but the kid doesn’t wanna go. so i’m about to turn around and tell suzanne. but half-way through my turn, i see my cousin and he’s all packed up with his backpack and everything. so i ask him, “where are you going?”

he says, “i’m going away.”

so i ask, “why?” and he replies, “i’m going away to get money.”

“where?” i ask.

then, he says, “you’re the only one that knows that i’m going. so i’m only telling you.” and he motions to me to come closer and whispers, “i’m going to mount marojsdofj (something super long) in the philippines to live with a tribe. i’m gonna do two missions there and get a reward.”

so then i bid him farewell, and he leaves.

in my dream, i look up the mountain and the tribe there and it’s HELLA DANGEROUS.

then i wake up. and when i do, i think, “WAIT. IS MARVIN IN THE PHILIPPINES?!” LOL

i think something might happen to him. i dunno if it’s good or bad, but it’ll definitely be a journey. the next chapter in his life, perhaps? but i told him and he said that he’d “keep it in mind”. and he left to do his chinese homework. he’s graduating the spring, i think. a couple more credits.

i mean, he rarely comes up in my dreams and this one was kind of marvin-centric and it was his birthday too.

but yeah! interesting stuff!

anyway, went to leavenworth “yesterday”. ate jaeger schnitzel and spaetzel. DELICIOUS stuff! then had ice cream. there were like less than 10 asian people there (counting myself and my parents). lol

there was a moment when me dad was kind of mean to the waitress when he asked her if they served pork hock. and she said that she never heard of it and then asked if it was ’shank’. and he totally gave her an attitude. ah, he’s so grumpy these days. it’s pretty annoying and it puts my mom into a bad mood as well. so she gave us a shitty table near this noisy family. but i thought it was okay because we don’t really talk during dinner, so it was nice to have some noise for once.

so we left at around 9 AM and got there at around 12… stayed until 3. and came back at around 6. i slept the whole way back and then came home and slept until 8 PM. then i wrote a paragraph for homework and did more college stuff. no joke.

my friend has a totally dramatic ass life right now! crazy! her exbf from sanfran came up to see her and try to get her back. and he’s the immature type who doesn’t want her to leave him because she listed herself in a relationship with this other guy to get him off her back. but he’s stubborn and clingy and lied to her about cutting himself. and the other day, she came to my house (she drove his car) and she told him to go back to his hotel and she’d take the bus. but he stayed out there the WHOLE TIME. and he called her and told her he was outside.

she’s actually hella annoyed with this guy, but she doesn’t want to push him away because he might do something WHACK.

also, to many asian people. it’s a very importante holiday right now: MOONCAKE DAY! hahaha. sike. it’s the mid-autumn fest. and i celebrated it by going to leavenworth. lol but seriously. we don’t really celebrate it now-a-days because my family is kind of fucked up in the aspect of take-and-take. like most chinese people, they’re fucking greedy. and my mom and my aunt are totally not like that. and they’re the ones who WOULD take initiative to put something together. but the rest of the family are unappreciative and whine like stupid people. so, yeah. nothing really happens. which is totally okay.

anyway, it’s 2:30 AM right now. even though i slept hella, i gotta go.

wow. 960 words. later peepz.

cardio is not good.

i sweated SO DAMN MUCH TODAY. there were blood donating people today, so we combined classes with the team sports class. it was horrible. the teacher is horrible and mean.

so the first half was okay because it was little drills mr. hamilton usually makes us do like squats, press-ups, different types of sit-ups, superman like things, and whatever. but then, the OTHER teacher makes us run around for a long ass time and people are dying. around 10 stations or so. crab-walks, jumping jacks, drumblers/droobles (i dunno what they’re called), ladder jumping, “strata” jump, straddle jumping, AHHH. i think that’s the most i’ve EVER sweated. more than running. it was really bad.

but yeah, i felt real good afterwards.

and yesterday, i went to nela. and saw evil spunerd again.. *sigh… he kills me every time…

we went over my essay that has been through countless editing because it was a school assignment and it’s been peer-reviewed, teacher-reviewed, everyone-reviewed. and i do my syntax for a reason, i put these words down for a reason, i say what i say for a reason. it sounds like me. i put sentences where i put sentences for a reason, god damn you!!

i think he just writes shet down just to write shet down because he wants me to do crap. whatever, i’m just changing the little errors. screw his type of writing. a personal statement is not supposed to be divided up into paragraphs that are 3-5 sentences long, asshole. they can be as long as i damn want!!

the end.

ps. my brother got me sick. swine flu? if it is, i’m gonna kill him.

pps. he looked SUPER gay today cuz of his little jacket. <3

ppps. mijin’s coming this weekend! YOW!!

pppps. here’s my rapper friend, scruppy!

it’s SCRUPPY BABY~~!!!

alyfob

and mei-by, lychee (LOL), and fob-ji.

and these nicknames come from the fob picture booth in downtown that most of us know as プリクラ (purikura aka print club).

the first one is mei’s hangout (her birthday was the 21st, but we hung out yesterday. and the first one is mine on my actual birthday (the 19th).

and last thursday, was this absolutely cute guy’s birthday, right? and so i gave him a tidge of cheesecake that i made originally for mei. and he works at this bubble tea place that the four of us (in the pictures) hang out. and the girl behind the counter with mr. irresistible half-whispers to him in chinese, “does that girl like you?” as i turn around to get back to our table. she probably thought that i didn’t understand chinese because i spoke to him in english. lol. i don’t know his response, but he probably said ,”no way!” or something along the lines of that.

also, our spoon penalties weren’t too bad because the guys we invited weren’t that cool or as fun as the one’s before, so the penalty was just to ask other people to play with us. but the first two guys we asked were these white dudes just visiting (one from ny and one from louisiana). it was one of guys’ birthday, so we sang to him. and then, he told us that nobody ever sang for his birthday so it was “the best birthday ever!!” i was really warm and fuzzy because we did such a silly little thing and he was so happy. :}

anyway, i’m SUPER procrastinating right now. i’ve got a giant LA homework assignment (mccormick, figures…) and since i didn’t get out of the class, i am holding myself responsible for this shiet. i will get this done because i went out all day saturday. my god!!

and mei got her license two days ago (friday) so she was super psyched about going places and doing shet and not taking public transportation. and she’s about to get her car in the next couple of weeks if her sister buys a lexus (LOL). which is weird, because i have a car but i’ve got no license. wtf…

since she got her license, mei wants to road trip and stuff and she wants to have a driving buddy… so i’m effing studying this damn hand book. i’m super determined!! i read it in bed and it’s actually kind of interesting. hahahahaha like the facts and stupid percentages and fine amounts and whatnot. lolol so after i get some facts concrete, my mother will test me or whatever and then, i will take this shiet! hopefully i can be like haoward and miss only one question. but then i can miss like 5 questions? or something to pass. hehe…

my cousin, marvin, wants to teach me driving too. lol he’s probably the best person to teach me cuz he’s a guy and he won’t nag me like my mom would. i’m sure my dad wouldn’t nag me, but he’d be too lazy to teach me… oh dang! it’d be like kevjumba and happyslip. hahaha

まぁ, i should get going on my homework. i shall kill stats first!! GRR!!

school counselors

are jack-wads. the front desk lady too! they’re all lazy s.o.b.’s. they have no system what-so-ever, they don’t cater to the needs of kids, it’s hard to make appointments with them, and they want to impose their shit on your schedule/life.

i’ve been trying to get out of this LA class that i’ve been starting to actually KIND of like. the teacher is pretty nice and i think i would be well prepared if i DID take ap exam (which i’m not). there is homework every night and there are rumors of 5 paragraph essays over the weekends. but i digress… their system sux. the course change request forms are supposed to be enough to change classes. but they’re actually void and you’re supposed to go straight up to them and bug them until they do your shit for you the way you want it. which melissa is good at. and i’m not because i’m not annoying like that?

it just shouldn’t be like this. counselors are supposed to help their kids and be orderly and whatever. and the one’s at my school are NOT like that at all. are any other high school counselors like that?

so today was like the last day to do this crap. a couple days ago, i went after school and i waited in line and the front desk lady cut the line off at the person in front of me and told us, “hey guys, i’ve got to go. if you blahblahblah”. JEEZ LADY. THE LAST DAY WAS COMING UP QUICK AND SHE JUST LEAVES.

i mean, if i wanted to change really, really badly, i would have gotten it done. but i didn’t really pursue it, so i don’t think that i wanted to change as badly as i thought. but melissa said that i gave up easily, which irked be a bit, but like i said, i just didn’t want it enough.

anyway, i also have to schedule a ’senior meeting’ with the same jerk-wads as above: the counselors. and yet again, i must go through the damn front desk lady. she is lazy. i hate her.

and this week is finally over.

so, me and my three friends that hung out saturday are on for a repeat of the events. KEKEKEKEKE

i’ve decided to make her a cheesecake and lisa kong and gingy can buy the 1 and 8 candles. hopefully they won’t both buy two 8’s. haha

and then, i’ll give a slice to cutie boy? hmm. lol

ohhh! today, also went to the museum for the first time in a while. it was okay… then walked home with melissa. interesting convos. it led to prom and who i’d ask or whatnot. BIG LOLZ.

butchyeah. this year is not gonna be cheap. senior pictures, yearbook, 18th birthday presents, graduation(?), prom, prom dress, trips, helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllla stuff. oh my god. so i decided that after college shiet is done, i’m gonna get some easy job and save up a tidge. eliot and i have some ideas, but who knows? :/

OH DAMN. another eliot-alyson connection. both of our cousins work at the same bubble tea place. coincidence or not?

anyway, this week is FINALLY over and now, i can just lay back and relax my aching back.